To be damn honest, the previous
thingie that I was suppose to ramble is nothing but a vague piece of shit on my mind right now. But you're lucky cause somehow I feel obligatory to complete that post. So here goes..
Well, there's thing huge magic phrase being used so often that I don't even know what it really means anymore.
"Just be yourself"
Woah okay awesome be myself, people tell themselves that and the next thing you know we contradict ourselves. Just what exactly defines YOU. How do you act to be YOURSELF. I dont know if this makes any sense to you but the moment you tell yourself to be yourself, you are already in the state of role playing.
Alright, I'll put it in a more lay man kinda way.
One day, you suddenly feel there's too many losers or douchebags that the world needs so you order your mind to tell yourself this, " be myself "
BANG! And the magic happens!! Really? Not so fast. Here comes my point. Unconciously, you would ask yourselves " HOW DO I BE MYSELF?" Then, descriptive words like natural, hardcore, so cool can die, blahblah blah fills your head (blahblahblah is not a description) You choose one or a combo of those descriptions and you convince yourselves that " WOAHW! I'm being myself lei! you losers can go eat shit and die! "
DOUBLE BANG! REALLY? But the pathetic truth is, you are just defining yourself by a certain " role " you tell yourselves to be. GUA GUA GUAAAA..WHO'S THE ONE EATING SHIT NOW!
For instance, lets say I chose to be natural from the variety of descriptive choices. THERE! I am already in role playing mode! I convince myself that I should be natural just because I told myself to be me and it's called "natural, spontaneous me" *ROLL EYES* HAHAHA it sounds bloody ridiculous but I think you get my point. No? just send your fanmail to kinsterinc@gmail dot com!!
Back to the million dollar question. So, how exactly do we define ourselves then. This is the part where the 99cents oprah inspired book comes in. Which is also why I started musing in the 1st unlikely place. I'll just leave you with the ultimate extract from the book. Deeeeep deeeeeeep space for self-imagination contemplation.
"How can I be myself?"
But how doesn't apply here because you are yourself already. Just stop adding unnescessary bagge to who you already are.
If you can be absolutely comfortable with yourself, then what's left is who you are-the Being behind the human, a field of pure potentiality rather than something that is already defined.
Digressing to some lighter happenings, mahjong craze is soooooooooooo on!!! Aunt georgie!! I think the mahjong table is your best lifetime purchase EVER!! HAHAHAHAHA. Not only it brought us healthy brain-training entertainment, BUT THE MAIN THING is it brought jasmin's mom and I closer hahahaha and ZUT of course!! L(~_~)L
Sakae sushi buffet! Seriously worth the moolah for kiamsters like me cause after eating this, its equivalent of having lunch and dinner in one shot. A MUST EAT for the k.i.e-sters. $_$
Or when mahjong is being a bitch, just be a sakai and go dine at sakae! hahahaha
nolinkkkkkkkkkkk!
